I've been working on automatic drawings and doodles for a while now, and I'm planning to turn them into a zine series. The idea is to work in collaboration with text based artists to create, short writings or poems in response to my images.

We practiced automatic writing during Christina's classes.
My writings and previous doodles had many similarities (satirical voice, infantile elements, memories stem from childhood)
I intend to continue with writing my own texts and to illustrate them as well.

It was there again without fulfillment.
Empty plates,left me in front of the porch.
I can see it not coming, playing until we fall.
Never have eaten enough. Too many empty plates.
I left before we turned to each other.
The floor was cold, will not sit down again.

It is okay this way. I am going further.
Here it comes.
It is less obvious. Seeing.
Monotone buzz, fuzz, ratings.
Stuck on you.

Bernie Sanders, opa sits.
Invisible shrinkng man, take a seat!
I saw you, you were me too.
Blury sandales.

It is okay this way. I am going further.
Here it comes.
It is less obvious. Seeing.
Monotone buzz, fuzz, ratings.
Stuck on you.

Take a break at the hospital,
while not even listening to anything.
Talking to myself, hearing my voice,
filling my head, fulfilling the urge
to break the soft layers of the skull

Perfected , erected tapes on my wall.
Messing without enough knowledge.
So this, so this...
Odysseus

I should have known.
I should have done.
Shiny eggs for breakfast.
My mother got sick.

Do not forget to strech before you try it again.
Only tomorrow.

Too loud in the noise.
That is thick

Slides and swings, playing and climbing.
Falling.
I should have eaten the vegetables.

Leading them to mislead myself
to never find my way back,
so it is not true. Seemingly.
It is what it seems to be.
It is.
It is.
Is is.












Are you still listening?

My writing from the classes

Only once, it was told,
I listened hard and became soft.

Are you hearing my voice?
Are you deaf?
Are you blind?
Where are you?
My voice is cropped

Installation for the evaluation based on automatic drawing and writing

During the Lirispiri classes with Christina, I felt encouraged to experiment with the method of automatic writing. The texts I wrote in essence, resembled my automatic drawings, which I had been working in the past two years. They comprised elements from or related to my childhood such as memories, feelings, impressions, moods, and were also reflections of small, and often banal situations, from my everyday life and personal struggles.

When I applied to the fine art master’s course, one of my primary motivations was to create work with higher spatial quality and distance myself from the traditional illustrator`s practices. For the presentation, I intended to create a workpiece that combines these techniques and also allows me to take a step back from the two-dimensional working approaches (publication, print) I had mostly used before.
For the evaluation, I prepared a stand-alone presentation. I set up an installation in my studio which consisted of intuitive drawings and texts made with the automatic techniques. Then, I attached the texts and images to the wall and also to each other so that they created a fragile chain of thoughts.

As the starting point for the chain, I used three panels with images I had created earlier which I felt the most connected with. One I related to the family, childhood, and caring, one - to faith, authority, and curiosity, and one to the home, origin, the mother, and the female figure. The next images and text I made and attached to the chain were all based also on free associations concerning the aforementioned topics and new the relations that they created by being juxtaposed together.

The final presentation created a personal space filled with my personal stories. As the maker, it was interesting to see how these stories, thoughts, and emotions interacted with each other and how they developed into something new, while, at its core, the installation functioned as a sort of increasingly steadier self-portrait.

After the discussion with my colleagues and tutors, the following key questions regarding further developments emerged:

• How do I keep the balance between improvisation and conscious decision-making in order to keep the spontaneity and rawness of the work?

• How do I translate, or filter, my personal stories in a way that still carries a universal meaning for a broader audience?

I have been struggling lately to focus on a particular topic and feeling indifferent and fatigued from the information overload and the internal and external expectations. By working with this intuitive and mostly subconscious method I found a way to map my genuine personal interests and concerns, which I find the most crucial finding of the evaluation work.

Is banal really banal?

We take out the trash, buy groceries and pet food, we pay taxes, put our phones on the charger. Are trivial things simply just ''out there"?

I think can be important frameworks and age documents of our current, ''modern'' society, despite they are seemingly invisible and blend into everyday life.



For our first ''Think'' assessment we had to choose a concept to write about. Mine was photorealism in Eastern Europe.

The banality of everyday life played an important role in the work of photrealists and was used as a political allegory

automatic - banality